Current Location:home Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Blink 182
I look happy on the outside but does he care whats on the inside I feel like Im slowly dieing I keep holding all the pain on the inside and I cant take it anymore cuz I thought I loved him but he broke my heart like all the other fuckers did why do I aways fall of face love that they give me they get what they want and leave me with a broken heart I try to call and say how I feel but you are aways gone all I wanted to say was that I still love you and I miss you. but wait this cant be the end I going to come for you cuz Im cold and sad I need you here with me so I can get back with my life I tried to get you back and you push me away again. the drops of silents falls all over. the look in your eyes drives me crazy. I feel the darkness coming back to me like I felt before I met you. so plez pick me up I need you so bad. but you let me down now Im here alone on my flore crying wanting what we had before and I start to let go letting ever thing I new down Im now slowly dieing so when Im gone I hope you know what you did to me.
so I just had to put that on here this is how I feel its what Mikey made me feel and I still do I love him with all me heart and he let me down so I will not call him or even look at him cuz one day he will realize what he lost and I wont be there for him do any of you people feel like this?
Current Location:home Current Mood: calm Current Music: Korn
hey every body how are all of you I'm so happy cause I found out today that I mite go out with a guy I like A LOT!!! his name is Mikey but I cant until I'm 16. Cause he just turned 18. n/e ways I still work at the bar I'm starting to hate it and I'm going to quit when I'm 16 so I can get a job in town. and when I'm 17 I'm going to move to the City with Kelly and go to High School and I'm going to go to college to be a Wedding planer but if I cant move with her I'm going to move in with my little sister and dad and do the same thing so ya that is all I can think of rite now so talk to ya later
YAY I am not Grounded anymore how are all you guys I live in Catalina now it is a small town outside of Tucson I go to public school now YAY It is really cool. There is a guy that I meet his name is Richard I never thought I would like him more then a friend But I thought wrong I like him so much he is not that cute but he is nice and sweet that is the main thing right? Richard is 15 years old OK so I am going to get to the point I don't know if he likes me like I like him. In some ways he acts like he likes me but in other ways he acts like he doesn't. I really want to go out with him but I don't know how to ask him can you guys help me?
how are all of you guys I am so sorry I don't update anymore There is nothing happening in my life rite now but there are to really strong girls who want to kick my ass I am so scared there names are Kelly and Candis Kelly is 15 and Candice is 16 Kelly want to kick my ass because she think I am lying to her about my age she thank I am 12 or 13 I have tried to tell her I am almost 15 so meany times and now she hates me and we were like best friends a week ago Candice wants to kick my ass because She think I want to have sex with Tyler(her boyfriend) and she said to all of her friends that I came rite up to her and ask if Tyler and I ever had a chance. I would never do that. We were friend like 2 day ago
this is one of the things she has said to me
Look please do me a fave. Leave Tyler alone. Okay i don't like you talking to him it really pisses me off. So just don't write to him okay?!
and I said "ok I will"
and This is what her Replied was
"You are such a lieing Bitch!!!! You never dated Cory, Tyler, or Colby!!! And if you ever tell ANY ONE THAT YOU ARE TALKING TO MY BOYFRIEDN AGAIN YOUR GOING TO BE REALLY REALLY SORRY. No you know what your such a fucked up little liar that you really nedd a good ass kicking. Tell you what, I really hope this makes you cry, it probly will everything makes you cry. So why don't you go fuck yourself!!!!!!! Cause no guy, boy, or man will ever want you!"
This is what I said to her
"Look I was talking to a totally different Tyler on the phone he is like one of my best friends OK I will stay away from the other Tyler if you want me to I was just trying to be nice sorry you can call me a liar I don’t care cause I know I am not and I am not going to cry ok I really want to be friends with you but I guess that is not going to happen again so I'm sorry for what ever I did I wont talk to you again I will back off
O and ya when did I ask you if Tyler and I ever had a chance if you guys broke up I am just wanting to know"
My dad is here I am so happy I have not seen him in 2 or 3 years yesterday I went and saw Fun with Dick and Jane it is so funny I went with my dad, after that he took me to Taco bell
then he took me home my mom was not there and the house was full of smoke and dall was in his room coughing so my dad and I went to go get my mom and she took care of everything
then I called colby around 10pm and I told him all that happened he did not have much of a response
so today my dad is going to come and pick me up around 10 or 11 and we are going to go to rock your world and I am going to get a couple of cd's and get one for colby and he said I am going to wear his Darth Vader watch until he pays me back for the cd and that is his favorite watch so I believe him
Colby called last night at 10 I talked to him until like 12 it was cool he went to sleep a couple of times so I just yelled his name and he woke up it was funny:) and I found out that he thinks I have a nice body YAY!!! and he said that his feelings mite change for me YAY!!! so I thing I mite go out with him when I get into high school with him he is going to be in 11th grade and I am going to be in 9th grade :) YAY!!!
I cant wait my sister told me that she is going to have a baby YAY we don't know if it is a girl or a boy I will tell you when I find out I hope it is a boy girls are to hard to raise
I will tell you more about it later I have to go write now
Current Mood: okay Current Music: Disturbed-The Sickness
I got Disturbed-The Sickness I cant stop listing to it!!! I love it so much!
I am so bord there is nothing to do anymore! so how is everybody?
Colby better call today because I am not calling him anymore and he was going to go to Church and rite when we were going to go and get him he called me and said his tooth hurt so he did not go!!! I think he did not want to go he doesn't like me very much he loves Savanna a little to much
I am going to try to put it in words here it go's Tyler is a HOT Goth!!! That I like a lot!!! Tyler m. is my Best friend and I like love him half to death but he just likes me as a friend. Tyler p. is one of my ok friends but I like him a little more then that. Colby is the first guy that I have ever been in love with, he gives me a feeling I have never felt before. But he will never give me a chance If only he now how I feel:( Cory is Colby twin (They don’t look the same) and he thinks I am stocking Colby so he hates me. Justin is stocking me and I am so fucking scared of him!!! Joey is another Goth the I like a lot!!!
I am so bord how about you? I don't know what to write about anymore all the stuff that is happening to me is to hard to put in writing :/ it is all about guy's now and (I hate it!!!) like Colby, Justin, cory, Joey, Tyler, Tyler p., Tyler m., (a lot of Tyler's) I found out that a guy that I liked a LOT, likes me and he flirts with me all the time and today I saw him Kissing another girl :( and when he saw me he ignored me.
I just got hurt really bad I fell down on my stairs :( but I had a good Christmas how was your day? I got two Korn C.D.s, axe, DDR (that hooks up to the T.V.), two sweat shirts, a C.D. player, hair brushes, a fuzzy toy, makeup, 32 batteries, a wallet chain, and $195.00 ;)
I don't have much to write I joined Vampirefeaks it's cool If you are in Vampirefeaks can you tell me so I can find you. My name is _I_love_boys_ if you want to find me ;)
I have don't have much to write I joined Vampirefeaks it's cool If you are in Vampirefeaks can you tell me so I can find you. My name is _I_love_boys_ if you want to find me ;)